Dear you, you and you.

Stop having those ready-made ideas about me.

"She would never go with Daddy on his scooter !" Well seems I did, and I survived, even though I wasn't very fierce at the beginning.

"She will never apply for her driving license !" Well yes I did. Just needed time for it.

"You would never dye your hair !" Well maybe I will, when I want to ! I even know what colour.

"You will never go and see a shrink even though you need to !" I will. When I'm ready. I did it last year. I waited till I felt I was ready, then I went. And then I got better. And then that thing in June happened, but for now I feel better on my own.

You don't understand. You don't seem to. You all have those ideas about what I will and what I will not do, and then you are so surprised when I don't do what you expected me to. I can be whoever I want to be, and I will still be me.

So yes, for now I'm the girl who lost her mummy six months ago and is recovering from it - painfully, angrily, very slowly, but recovering. But I know I will get through this, with or without help. And this does not mean that I will stop living - I haven't, in case you haven't noticed.

Because at the same time I'm still the 19-year-old girl trying to enjoy her studies and planning her future.

With love,

Me.

Hey there! I'm Drexi, I'm 19, and I'm incredibly awkward when it comes to introductions. I've lived in several cities across the U.S., and spent six months overseas.

I'm an Anime-geek, prone to strange references, cosplay and having emoticons accompany my text. >//////<;;

My other, half-assed interests include art, writing (obviously), food-consumption, travel, sleep, roleplay and procrastination. ;>__>

I'm sarcastic, a moderate-pessimist (often enough that I can't call myself a realist), but I try not to be too abrasive to strangers.

...And though I love having people to talk to online, I'm not particularly fond about talking about myself, especially on such an easily-accessible venue, so if you're interested in starting a conversation, feel free to message me. I promise to be nice~

Current Mood: tired

I've added this to "The Biology of Dreaming" by Vexen Crabtree (2005):

An unborn baby at 32-36 weeks will have the thalamo-cortical neural networks in place that facilitate conscious awareness. Prof. Koch notes that an unborn baby at that point is almost permanently asleep and sometimes in REM sleep; although we do not know to what extent late unborn babies dream, there is evidence that they feel "the way we do when we are in a deep, dreamless sleep". Later:

“Dream content is informed by recent and more remote memories. Longitudinal studies of dreaming in children by retired American psychologist David Foulkes suggest that dreaming is a gradual cognitive development that is tightly linked to the capacity to imagine things visually and to visuospatial skills. Thus, preschoolers' dreams are often static and plain, with no characters that move or act, hardly any feelings and no memories.” - Prof. Christof Koch (2009)

There have been a lot of issues with notifications with several email providers for the past 2 weeks. Seems that a spammer has been using insanejournal.com as a landing page for their spam. This is causing some email providers to either delay or completely block mail from insanejournal.com.

There isn't anything we can do about this besides continue to be vigilant in suspending these accounts. If you own an account that gets suspended with no notification it is because your account was mistakenly identified as a spam account. Due to the shear volume of accounts being suspended we cannot review each individual account so some mistakes may be made.

Please understand we have been and will continue to do anything we can to stop this spam and therefore restore the ability to send email to a number of providers.

( PLAGUED RPG - What would you do if you lost your magic? )

hey, new on here, haven't had a journal since hs, but I love to write and chat with new people.
21/heartland,USA; reading, writing, music (both listening and making), the outdoors, and cooking are some of my passions

I'm a currently a student, hope to become a teacher, writer, psychologist, concert pianist...or superhero. obsessed with traveling, and have actually been very lucky and have had the chance to visit a lot of different places in the world...always on the lookout for the next destination or adventure.

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